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♥ Date: Sunday, May 16, 2010
Your love falls down
don't tell me that nothing happened when you don't sound okay at all, i'm not stupid. i'm not a robot either. truthfully, your smses do affect me. but the main point is, i really really care for you, so i show concern for you. don't take it for granted, please. i want you to take good care of yourself so that you can be in good health and not suffer by not being able to eat this and that. and because you show that you don't really wanna help yourself, i'm hurt. because i've tried my best to help you. i want you to understand. ):
has been long since a proper post? yes i think so. lets just touch on my days after exams ended first. (: on thursday, i went out with clique to celebrate jx's (belated) birthday. caught Ip Man 2 and it was really awesome! like wooooooh i finally get to watch a movie and it wasn't a disappointment. :D had dinner at BBQ chicken, T1, then headed to arcade which we spent a long time camping. LOL. finally, we decided to go to the roof top. ended up playing cards~ though there wasn't much of a proper conversation between all of us, it still feels good that we are spending time with each other. thank God.
friday was a blast as it was FREEDOM FRIDAY! :D i had lunch with cyan at PP then we spent a super long time finding that stupid ktv. HAHA. so we waited for chuhui and rhesa before heading to find agnes and bella. 2 HOURS OF KTV FOR $3.30 PER PERSON, SO WORTH IT! ^^ afterwards, we went to Ice Cream Chefs cos we had 2 hours of spare time before BBQ. shared a large cup with ch and i'm glad we made the right choice of ice cream. went to PP to do ridiculous things as we were too free~ so we ended up at Cotton On trying on heels and those lame sunglasses. LOL. super cute though. waited for cyan and irene to come before cabbing to ECP. attempted to play volleyball but i am an epic failure when it comes to that! HAHAH. after awhile when more people reached, we played a game, something like massive musical chairs and connect 4. HEARTATTACK PLEASE! best example, ch. (AHHHHHHHHHH!) LOL. though it was drizzling during the games, it stopped when the bbq started. really really luck of us. (: played daidi and ate before playing captains ball in the dark. it was alr 9+ when we started playing. but no doubt, it was still fun. (Y) slacked for awhile and left ECP at 11. thank you cyan for sending me homeeee! :D
today has got to be 1 of the craziest day. i woke up at 9+ to prepare for some wedding lunch that my family and i needed to attend. lunch at Marriott Hotel, awesome 8 course meal. heheh. xD went for service after that! today's service was really awesome! dinner at plaza sing~ didn't eat as i was still full from my late lunch. was really entertaining seeing marcus and daniel acting like nerds though. HAHAHA. arcade while waiting for their movie to start. team play (bball)! marcus + bella VS kg + me! LOL. WE PWNED THEM. WOOOOOOH. :D funny how much that stupid machine can cause you to sweat so much. -.- by the time we finished playing, it was 11 plus alr. so i decided to leave with bella. (: reached home at 1230 and i had gastric. thus, i couldn't resist the korean noodles. HAHAHAH. :P
so, thats all bout life after exams. has been really enjoyable, just slacking your whole day out. :D as for exams, i know i'm dead for ss, amaths, history, chem and chinese. yes thats how bad i'm gonna screw up my MYEs. as much as i don't want to get in SSS, i think the results will leave me no choice. zzz. how can someone ever assure me that i will do well. ):
ah whatever, my party mood is currently on. (: and you have no idea how much i look forward to AC and hols. its 10 more days to AC and 12 more days to hols!!! finally, rest. or maybe not, since training is starting next week. spoiler much? think i won't even have the mood to train. like for goodness sake, we're all getting back all our papers on monday or tuesday, isn't this just meant to make us cry...
kay, its currently 2.53 am and my eyes are closing. update bout results soon~
J.
Labels: days, random, thoughts
♥ Date: Friday, March 05, 2010
I'll take a stand until the end
i came home.
dad: so julia, next year your turn?
me: what thing? how's da jie's results?
dad: STRAIGHT AS.
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
dad: you laugh what!
me: -looks at mum- WO ZAI KU XIAO HAHAHAHAHAH
mum: -LAUGHS-
dad: so is your sister smart?
me: that is a rhetorical question.
dad: so are you going to get all As?
me: you think so easy ah -.-
dad: you mean your sister didn't study?
me: i know she did.
dad: then what about you? come back so late everyday, don't need study ah?!
me: just cos you don't see me studying means that i don't study.
dad: you say one ah. okay, i wait.
WA STRESS STRESS STRESS. -.- nvm, my sister's my motivation. ha ha ha.
(EASIER SAID THAN DONE LA HOR HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA)
i like today's lessons. (Y) i can understand amath better than emath. i hate emath, cos i don't get a shit about the graphs. ): the only thing that spoilt my day was my chem results. i failed term 1's chem, i think. sucky-est results so far. i am not pleased. zzz. but chinese managed to make me happier, got a 49/70 for my zuowen. i could have gotten 50+ if not for my stupid cuo bie zi! but, i'm glad my chinese is improving, so i have more hope for my chinese Os this year. haha.
after school, i went to watch Alice in Wonderland with chelle, sam and grace. not a bad movie, but not strongly recommended. LOL. unless you're like rochelle, then you would LOVE the movie. :D kkkkkay, now i'm officially broke. i'm not gonna go out next week, cos i need to save! hopefully i would be able to stick to plan. hurrrrr.
my sister is v cute. during recess, i sent her a sms saying: A A A A. HAHAHAHA I SENT YOU YOUR RESULTS. she replied: ya funny -.- i replied: HAHAHAH OKAY LA. I WISH YOU GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR RESULTS. she replied: wa so sweet ah. kk thanks! apparently she has a sister who can predicts future? so i predicted her results! KIDDING -.-
i'm looking forward to sunday! ^^ and last week of school, I SHALL NOT FLUNK SS I SHALL NOT FLUNK SS I SHALL NOT FLUNK SS. i'm not looking forward to see stupid red numbers on my results slip though. -.-
okay i'm happy with life now. please don't screw up.
J.
Labels: random, school, thoughts
♥ Date: Saturday, February 20, 2010
其實我的執著依然執著
3 days of school this week, i missed 1.
Wednesday, 1702.
morning assembly was cancelled cos some guy fell and his arm went totally out of shape. don't know whether is it a fracture or is his arm broken but YUCK omg. bird went crazy LOL. ss in PAS, emath, chem. boring lessons! ): recess then history, watched The Pianist. for english, we decided to do a speech on Abortion. HAHA. blah blah blah. during SEL, class decided on what to do for our social enterprise. i'm making brownies with rochelle etc etc! ^^ (HAHA ROCHELLE, EXTRAS ARE FOR US. (Y)) slacked in class till 3 plus then went to tm with cyan, rhesa and yy to get presents. $$$~
waited for grace at macs while eating with cyan and rhesa. (: caught Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief. PERCY'S CUTE LOL. he looks like Zac Efron! hahah. home at 9 plus? skipped dinner, bathed and slept cos i was in the worst mood ever. _|_
Thursday, 1802.
woke up at 5, cos i set my alarm at this time just to study for ting xie. -.- washed up and all. studied...... and then my head started hurting so i went back to sleep and woke up at 9+. missed school~ but was v happy, cos i woke up and saw 9 new messages. ^^ okay so, 1 stupid headache for the whole day. zzz. -.- rotted at home, watching XYZXF the whole day = crying for the whole day. (just kidding)
Friday, 1902.
cabbed up to school with sam, keith and jinyi. amaths eng amaths = SIAN SIAN SIAN. had 30 mins of recess cos yy needed to do business. LOL. chem after recess was damn lame. we spent 1 whole period going through a worksheet. and 1 period wasn't enough. ha. ha. double chinese without ZLS. (Y) needed to do zuowen and the topic came v timely. 你的朋友做了一件讓你痛心的事. awesome or what. -.- but obviously with the people around me, we all decided to not do it. haha. crapped like madddddddddddddd and we handed up the paper with only 1 paragraph written. we're all gonna get killed on tuesday. ._.
movie with sam and chelle after school! woooo~ Valentine's Day. HAHA. we went to TM to walk around first. apparently we met jinyi on the way to tm and so he dragged chelle away from us to have his gossip session. lol. -.- reached E!hub at 3+, got tickets and went to macs. hehe, we smuggled macs in the theatres. :x were damn lucky cos we got the cinema which had the chairs with "tables". :D the movie felt long... ended at 6 plus. chelle had to rush home cos she had to go out with her family. sam and i had no choice but to go seperate ways~
thats all bout (the better part of) life.
its not fair.
wellz, i thought you knew me better. i thought better of you. i was wrong? ya, probably, probably not.
okay goodbye.
Julia, :|
♥ Date: Saturday, January 16, 2010
I got troubled thoughts
and a self esteem to match
what a catch
just a picture to start with for today.
so, its the end of another week. last weekends passed awesomely fast and i was looking forward to the start of the second week. but this week's different, life started to be a bitch. second week was... really full of ups and downs. a lot of things got to me and then it starts troubling me for the whole bloody day. zzz.
there's always days you feel like you don't fit in. but what happens if that happens for practically everyday? does that really mean that you don't fit in?
yes. maybe thats how it feels like being around you all and not feeling happy. i didn't see it coming at all. but its not like you all need to care.
life goes on.
QUAHTYANWEI! :D
you have to admit that its a nice picture heheheheh. (: here's your post okehhh.
hmmm. you're been a great friend to go crazy with and someone who i can talk nonsense to! hahaha. anyway, 2010 just started and i look forward to spending more time with you! hope that it would be a great great year for you and that you will do well in your studies. stop pon-ing badminton training and work hard for bdiv'11 ^^v! you are also welcome to "join netball". LOL. take care! <3>
i suddenly like the lines i used to start my post with a lot. fits in perfectly.
made me realize...
Julia, D:
Labels: dedication, random, thoughts
♥ Date: Tuesday, December 29, 2009
thinking that i mean much more than that.
i'm wrong.
don't know whats the point of getting so disappointed with you all.
hmm?
Labels: thoughts
♥ Date: Wednesday, November 25, 2009
nothing ever seems to be enough
i don't know how to start.
-woke up feeling kinda down
-met lydia at pasir ris and trained to Redhill together
-failed to meet the rest at Bedok cos the train was too packed
-reached BMSS at 9 plus
-warm ups and all
-had a bad feeling bout the game
-played WA for first quart, and C for the second and last quart.
-drawed for first and third quart
-were lagging during second
-won the last quart
= 22:25. we lost.
-good game though. (:
-happy bout my play, like finally.
-had lunch at Tiong Bahru Plaza (whatever the sp is), LJS!
-trained home with lydia, charisse, amanda and ximin.
-enjoyable ride home.
-I'M THE LAST PERSON WHO LYDIA SEES BEFORE SHE FLIES OFF. :D
-came home, bathed and napped for about an hour.
-BLAHBLAHBLAH.
(changing mindset in process, not important.)
i've had enough of those tears, and feeling-so-hopeless-times. and i'm not gonna allow you to continue with it. enough is enough and its time to pick yourself up. no one is gonna fight for you so you have to fight for yourself. show how much you want it, or need it.
like i promised you. (:
i still remember, do you?
Julia, :]
Labels: netball, thoughts, today
♥ Date: Tuesday, November 24, 2009
when your heart gets broken, you sort of see cracks in everything.
i missed training cos i overslept. oh my god. feel damn damn damn stupid. D:
i officially have a phobia of oversleeping when i have something on in the morning. wtshit. there's friendly against BukitMerah tomorrow. and i have to reach bedok at 8. T.T somehow, i wish i didn't need play tomorrow. it makes me feel worse x123456789. i feel inferior. when that happens, i lose confidence in myself, so i can't play/put in my best. yet, i wouldn't allow myself to give up, but i'm deproving. i know it myself and the feeling really really sucks? ah, whatever. maybe i can say bye to my slot in bdiv10. ):
so, i spent my day slacking at home. and i was reminded of my pile of homework. great. ):
fml.
2 more days.
Julia, D:
♥ Date: Monday, October 26, 2009
love like this~
(this line keeps ringing in my head, OMGOSH)
(stupid, while i was setting up the timer, they planned this! ): )
went to watch My Sister's Keeper today. awesomeeeeeee show. :D hahaha. but it made me cry many many times. OH AND, IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I SAW YINGYI CRYING. HAHAHA. opps yingyi! i just said it. LOLOL. we caught a 4+ show so it ended at about 6 plus. not hungry~ so we went around the malls and decided to eat Frolick only. AHAHA. the new flavour's damn nice. (: then we went jelly shopping! think we're so gonna qiao zha someone ._. HEHE. XD we got 6 packs of jelly in total = $20+ O: LOL. sat at the stairs and started talking again. went home at 8+ HAHA. short yet great time with them! <3
anyway, my weekends were boring. -_- spammed ZJSG till i'm only left with ep 35. and if i watch it now, i would have to wait till sat for the next ep, HOW SAD. HURRR. oh and, there was 1 day when i was just watching tv, then my dad came in the room and mentioned about my results. i thought he didn't knew since i didn't care to tell him bout it. looks like he knows that me mself is unhappy with it, thats why he didn't scold! :x i feel so sad manzxzxz, like i've disappointed them big time. ah wells, next year then.
SCHOOL TOMORROW! heard that we would know if we're gonna get promoted and all. hmmm. i just wanna know my OVERALL. god damn it. super nervousssssssssssss. but i don't think thats my focus this week. the thing is, there's only 4 more days with 2J. saddening. D: i would really really miss this class cos they've been awesome all these while. bahhhhhhhhhhhh.
but nvm, the thought of class chalet makes me happy alr! HAHA. looking forward to it A LOT A LOT. ^^
okay i think i'll end here, till whenever~
Julia, :D
♥ Date: Friday, October 16, 2009
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
(thanks to you, you.)
Tuesday, 1310.
Happy Birthday YS! <3
(hope you received my emaillllll~)
geog and english paper.
i think geog was kinda good. this is my only hope for a damned A. yeah, hopeless me. recess sucked cos if i was not wrong, only the chicken rice stall was opened. so you can imagine the queue? survived with bread and a drink then had english paper. screwed passage B. O: i just hope i won't fail... (: went to eat after it then headed to yingyi's. got bubble tea and donuts before going to her house! watched XGDD while eating and went to study at about 2 plus. decided to do math cos i worried more for it than chinese. it kinda failed though, we ended up disiao-ing rhesa to the max. joke! haha. macs before going home~
Wednesday, 1410.
math and chinese paper.
didn't think that math was that bad, just that i screwed up my graph question and i would probably fail my algebra section without knowing. L-O-L. i failed to study chinese during recess was i was distracted by bryan's itouch! hehe. :x so yup i screwed up my chinese. bye bye B3. ):
went to the airport with yy, cyan and rhesa. (: settled down at Popeyes. but once again, our studying plan failed thanks to "Muthu(s)". HAHAHA. nvm, at least i THINK i helped yingyi a lil bit. xD
Thursday, 1510.
super tired from all the waking-up-early-mornings.
last paper, woooohooo. (:
but yet,
i'm
prepared
to
fail
science.
yuppps, the paper was fag hard and i was just telling cyan and bryan GG through the whole paper. T.T kinda pissed that i can't even end the last day properly. but ah wells, at least everything's over. TILL NEXT WEEK! i'll go home and emo. ): haha.
stayed in school to wait for rhesa and yingyi to finish playing ball before going to movieeee~ stupid rhesa! i make sure i get my revenge on you for what you've done. (((: waited till bout 1 plus then things got a lil screwed. sorry for being so childish and all, but i cant help it. you know i hate it when people waste my time and change their mind at the last minute. ): we went to TM as yy needed to get something. ^^ then headed to Ehub! for 500 Days of Summer. :D awesome show. somehow, many lines from the show hit me, real hard. walked around then we went to TM, again. LOL. cyan needed to get a present for her friend so yeppp. ended up at the arcadeeee! hahaha. damn fun. :P yingyi and i own at air hockey. muahaha. xD homed at 7 plus.
i had a really bad night cos i've learnt bout some things which really hurt me. thus, i tried so hard just to fall asleep. for some reason, my body kept shivering. that made me felt so... weak. ):
(maybe, i was/am)
Today, 1610.
mini olympics! haha. entered school hearing jocelyn whining and whining. lol. she badly wanted Cdiv Capts Ball as only me and bird are in the Bdiv 1. so, we got the Cdiv slot! :D just that they made us play against Basketball in the first round which was totally unfair. ah fuck them
(teachers). -_- was shivering after the match hahaha, chilly weather. (: went to play ball with netballers afterwards and i had a good chat with bird! :] thank you cyan for waiting for me. <3 hilled with her, ch and ly. got yoghurt at WS. hmmm. frolick's still better. hehe. then i finally got everything out after talking to cyan. felt better, but not good enough...
so yep, thats all bout my life this week. the following's gonna be a lot of thoughts...
meeting someone, is not fate, its a coincidence.
falling in love with someone, is not destiny, its a coincidence.
(from 500 Days of Summer)
so don't you think that there are too many coincidences in our lives? too much till it gets... out of hand...?
why do you think that everything's bad is done by me. it doesn't pay to be nice, does it? you don't care. but i do, yet, if you don't show someone that you care, thats not caring. its not true though. sometimes you care too much till you don't even know how to face that person. true? anyway, the point is, i get your drive and i should just forget about you? you don't know how disturbed i get knowing that you're unhappy with me or whatsoever. not that you would care actually. so yes, just get it in your head that i'm not who you think i am. you never remember the good things, do you?
(far too many doubts.)
okay, i don't wish to go on anymore. it hurts cos we can't even be friends.
Julia, ._.
♥ Date: Thursday, October 08, 2009
can we pull through this avalanche
我再也不要为你伤心。
所有的一切，都已经是个曾经。
如果曾经不是曾经。。。
my mood's screwed up today. if only i could stay out the whole night, then maybe i wouldn't feel so bad. i hate feeling so weak.
nisrin had the new teacher to come watch our drama presentation. lol. negative comments from nisrin though my group didn't perform. geog was damn boring. SAL let us watch a video on rivers, LOL, BLOCKBUSTER MOVIE. xD slacked during eng once again... recess was a shock. O: (cheer up grace! :D) hmm then double chinese. we were supposedly going to the comp lab to do things on enjoy edu. but in the end, WCK made us watch Ip Man. LOLOLOL. imba luh, now our EOYs are going to hell. .____. mr ong actually finished on decomposition!!!!! i'm impressed, not. for him to teach this way is as good as me reading the notes myself. hurrr. had 1 period to self study but he was PMS-ing and catching people who talked. lame.
rehearsed elit after school and went down to TM to meet my parents, since my dad asked me to go down to renew my plan and get a new phone. took super long to decide which phone i wanted, after getting suggestions from people. W995. went to the counter and they told me that they didn't have red! SPOILERRRRR. D: but nvm, I HAVE MY UNLIMITED NOW. WAHAHAHA. and i guess thats what matters. maybe i should not get that phone now. bad time, bad time. ):
afterwards, trained down to Tmerah again to meet yy wq and bryan. they are so irritating LOL. guailan-ed like mad luh. stupid big bullies. D: decided to go to Pasir Ris Macs. not productive at all. HAHAHA. all bryan's fault! :P so noisy, kept making us laugh. so i didn't do much just now. :x dinner at KFC was such a joke. laughed like mad till my stomach hurt. o: bus-ed home with yingyi! :D
longgggggggggggg dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. and i'm super tired, physically and mentally. i'm
going
to
bed
by
11.
bye
people.
Julia, D:
♥ Date: Tuesday, September 22, 2009
i always forget to forget you.
school was goooood. (: reading period was L-O-L. bryan got owned. :P spent the whole period chatting and all, rather than studying. :x elit was kinda crap cos nisrin didn't allow us to pick our own groups. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) wq and co. were laughing at my expression. -_- act cute, try being in the same group laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. freak. pe was fun, usual captain's ball, without nicholas. this makes it a whole lot better. HAHA. didn't eat during recess. (yess, i saved monehhhhhhh. :D) geog seemed to be a torture listening to her talking. then she made all of us stand. have to answer her question before we sit. LOL. i got to sit thanks to wq being a girl. HAHAHA. maths was crap. couldn't get any worse cos i don't get a shit. (i should really hit my books.) talked the whole of SEL again. :x
went to eat at Ikea after school. hmm, looks like i didn't save money. -_- bahh. then got my DNT materials from Giant. (Y)
a lotttttttttttttttttttt of things are going through my mind now.
(i'm kinda scared of you cos of the things you said. i alr felt like i can't trust you anymore. yet again, when i give you a cold shoulder. you make me feel so guilty. i feel like i'm contradicting myself. ahhh freak you.)
(you, are such a screwed up paranoid bitch. for you being that, please stop blaming me for revealing your secret when i wasn't even CLOSE. yeah and, whats with your lies? forget it, i don't even want to be a part of your life to start with. so if you would leave me alone, that would help a lot. i really regret talking to you cos i've just gotten myself into a state where i would never choose to be in. let me tell you something, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN WHOEVER YOU'RE INTERESTED IN. and yes, its getting really irritating cos you're just finding something to talk about. sucker.)
someone save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ):
Julia, :/
♥ Date: Sunday, September 06, 2009
&love isn't love till you give it away.
the feeling of getting everything except something, yet that something could play a much bigger part than all the other things you get. somehow, things are always like that.
my heart is breaking. it doesn't matter to you but it matters to me. i don't want to forget you and everything about you, but i wanna forget how i felt towards you. then maybe life would be easier to live, without you hurting me with all your stupid words or actions. just give up that damn small hope idiot.
hi world. (:
2J didn't win any prize at the bowling event cos you all had me and sam to screw up the last round for you. HAHAHAHAHA. we got a B-R-Y-A-N = 0-0-0-0-0 (ling-ling-ling-ling-ling), ya, our first 5 tries. :D mrs neo kept laughing at me. D: < LOL. but i don't regret going down. had so much fun playing. hehe. and mrs neo's actually q nice. (: she asked me to not be so naughty just cos i kp bryan. ._. then i told her about him bullying me in class. she: OHHH. -laughs- HAHAA. :D yepp, stayed there from 2+ till 7. O: had a great time laughing at agnes. (: she's so cute!
bahhhhhhhh. its a sunday and i'm just gonna ROT AT HOME. ): maybe i should start studying. since i'm not exactly v happy with my 72%, though it was a great improvement from my 64%. but everyone seemed to did so well this term... i should/could have done better. not much homework for this holiday... should use it to touch up on my notes. haha. since i'm broke also, i won't be going out much, i think. (:
Monday - kbox?
Tuesday - training.
Wed - ?
Thursday - training? sculpture walk.
Friday - ?
in a way, i only have wed and fri to study, plus the following weekends. okay nvm, I SHALL STUDY TODAY. ^^
stupid rainy days. keeps tempting me to just sleepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. :x haha. i think i got my contract date wrong, but i KNOW its soon. i want my samsung jet! ): i don't look forward to school re-opening at all. FREAKING SEAT ARRANGEMENT. i love my seat so much now. ughhh. aha, random thoughts.
i wanna watch tv now! till tomorrow~
有希望才会有盼望？
Julia, :D
Labels: random, thoughts, yesterday
♥ Date: Tuesday, August 25, 2009
so much for happy endings
have been pretty busy lately~ sorry for the lag of posts. shall start from sunday, with whatever i can recall. (:
Sunday, 2408.
ermmmmmmmm. i remember using comp in the morning then going to cyan's house afterwards for elit. was supposed to meet at pasir ris MRT, but we all ended up going to her place ourselves. cyan, yy and i wasted about 1 hour slacking cos sam came late. started off by joining all the ice cream sticks. what the fuck. the uhu glue was totally pissing me off and the smell is just ~ it caused us headaches. D: worst thing was, when we were painting them halfway, it BROKE. -_- frustrating much? but nvm, we had tea break! LOL. cyan's mum made us chicken wings and seaweed chicken. :DDD yingyi was going crazy over the cute cup. HAHA. went back to work and we finally finally, got the those done. the tone of the purple was making us go crazy also. at the end of the day, we got the whole room borders done, plus Lee herself. LOL. sounds v little, but if you try it, hurrrrrrr. dinner at her place was hilarious! her mum totally said something to make me LOL. felt so unglam luhhhhhhh. apparently yingyi has children. (: hmmmm ^^ went to slack more after dinner and only left there at 9+. thanks to yy's parents for the lift home. :D
totally burned off sunday with elit, which didn't let me have time to study for science, at all. awesome not. and my phone screwed up. the system inside was cocked so i thought that restarting it would work. off-ed my phone and i couldn't on it. genius. I'M NEVER EVER GETTING A SONY PHONE AGAIN. T.T
Monday, 2408.
went to school like usual. (: the walk up was great, for once. COS IT WAS COOLING. HAHA. didn't sweat at all, just superrrrrrrr shuang. tsk, we had to go down for assembly. (I THOUGHT DON'T NEED LUH, if this happens on friday, i will be so dead cos i don't know if i can find my school socks) double chinese was a bore. she didn't want to go through for oral! bloody hell. D: and, she showed us our CA2 marks. i see my tests marks till so happy, yet the others ~~~. hurrrr. cos i didn't bother handing up. :x (NVM. I'M GONNA FINISH ANOTHER 1 TODAY, I SWEAR. :D) had to do comprehension during english cos neo thought that our compre was weak. -_- didn't finished it and i handed up a nameless paper. rawr. lol. science after recess. i really pity mr ong. he talks and talks and talks, YET NO ONE EVER LISTENS. HAHA. cos its seriously v boring, must as well let us SELF-STUDY. xP maths, we started on trigo. TOA CAH SOH. LOLOL. big leg aunty. mr seow always wants to be funny yet he doesn't laughs. weird person. HAHAHA. LC for malay then school ended! (:
stayed back to do elit again. -_- we made the bed, the table and.... i think thats all. :x cos sam couldn't stay till late and we didn't have much materials with us. went to service my freaking phone, for like, the third time in this year. omgzxzxzxzxz. then we headed to Art Serve to make our class tee. i like i like! HAHA. luckily there's not much repetition in the numbers. (: no 1 took the number i took~ lalala. xD (but omg, i even get disiao-ed for the number ._. ) we stayed there for HOURS wthell. :/ why must they be so busy! ah wells, at least we can get our shirts by teachers day. :D
chionged my science notes after dinner and all, didn't finish till 10 plus. D: ended up sleeping at 11 plus and i had to wake up at 530 in the morn ( to reach school early cos i didn't even read my notes. o.O)
Today, 2508.
whoops, i overslept. 15 mins. :x tried to chiong but didn't manage to take the earlier train. bahhhhh. couldn't remember a thing on the way up to school. once again, the weather in the morn was (Y). HAHA. went to class and tried to remember some stuff, test turned out to be q okay. :D I REALLY HOPE I CAN PASS. don't wanna end up in another remedial. -_- rawr. elit was slack cos the groups had to present their multimodal. (: (I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE DRAWN FRIDAY. XD) i didn't bring pe shorts today. so i was supposed to run an extra of 5 rounds, but i didn't run at all. LOL. gave mr lim damn a lot of excuses. lmao. went straight to playing captains ball. :D it was super retarded omg. laughed till i peng-ed on the floor. stupid weiqiang and nicholas. all bully me! idiots. but still looking forward to playing tomorrow. :] i realised i have been eating lesser for recesses. o.O but my appetite's not affected at home. HAHAHAH. hmm anyway, geog lesson was sort of like science. she went through the slides but seriously, i doubt anyone paid attention. and i really dislike geog lessons with her. she keeps randomly call people to answer this and that. so bloody irritating. ): that reminds me, i need to find an article. hurrrrrr. maths was kinda good i guess, at least i can understand this topic. (: died in SEL cos it was too boring. but crapped for awhile then that last 15 mins seemed so torturous. T.T
stayed in class to do our elit, again. stupid bryan made my hand filled with glue. i had a hard time washing it off damn it. had maths remedial. but it ended earlier than usual today. the worksheet was q simple luh. ^^ went off to 2G to find bird and all. changed and went to canteen to get food cos all of us were hungry. ~.~
10 laps and all to start our training. i like the tai tui part, it really stretches our legs. :D serene said i looked like some gymnast. LMAO. which means i still have SOME of my flexibility. xP coach came and we asked her about she joining Singapore Idol. HAHAHA. then we made her sing for us. SUPER AWESOMEEEE. her voice sounds so diff than her talking voice, but its damn damn damn nice! :D usual ball work, then we had to do some defending drill (AHYER. i sprained my pinky cos of it). and coach gave us a short break yet we took longer than expected, down 50. =.=! 5 suicides to end training was TIRING. but okay, still managed to finish all within the given timing. (:
bird's mum gave me a lift to the bus stop and so i reached home earlier than usual! :D
i think its obvious enough through the way i treat you. stop asking if i'm unhappy cos i don't know how to tell you about it. i would actually, if you asked me through some other manner.
kkay, i need to do work. (: BYEEEEE.
PS* OH YESSS. I CAN COLLECT MY PHONE TOMORROW. YES YES YES! XD
Julia, :]
♥ Date: Sunday, August 23, 2009
trust
now i know that trusting you was never right, never safe. cos all that you were, was a fake. don't you think that its sad knowing that your friend was never true to you, yet you trusted her with all your heart? lets just say it happens to everyone, but i never expected you to be one. i'm totally disappointed, and whatever, but not like you need to care.
hurt. i never wanted to believe this,
Julia, ):
Labels: thoughts
♥ Date: Thursday, August 20, 2009
lets break it down now
a vibe you can't define.
wanted to reach school earlier but i failed to get up. HAAAAAAAA. my alarm rang at 530, so i got up to snooze it, 5 mins. apparently that "5 mins" were long, i only woke up at 6. LOL. lame much. HAHA. could have reached school at 715 or something, but sam was late so i only reached school just on time. i hate going to assembly with my bag. -_- anyway, we had spot check today. i was totally ZOMG. -immediately tuck in blouse, pull socks- but neo said my socks were not high enough. :x managed to pass though! hahahahaa. i got away with 2 ear sticks, which SAL said it was not allowed -_-, folded skirt, fringe and low socks. pure luck. :x first lesson, lit, nisrin didn't come. but sam, cyan and i didn't do anything cos yingyi didn't come~ haha. excuses, probably. so we ended up playing truth or dare. kinda lucky today i suppose. (: i got kinda pissed during this lesson though, some idiot got people to shoot me with paper bullets, attention seeker uh. what a loser. geog was neutral, lesson seemed to pass fast. haha. english was totally crap, neo went through the paper. she got people to read and i ALWAYS get sabo-ed at these kind of number things. if only 7 wasn't so prominent. =.=! recess then double chinese. WCK is crazy, i swear. she wants us to finish 2 gong han within 2 periods, when she alr used some time to teach us. genius. didn't finish 2 obviously, only finished 1 with 2 pages +. :] science lab was fun. HAHA. me, cyan, sam and clarice formed a 100% efficient "factory". lmao. cos we had to test pH, and everything was stationed at diff place, so we kept passing the beaker around. LOL. super retarded, but fun. (: haha. slacked in class for awhile cos i wanted to study a bit for dnt. went for the test, total gg-ness. hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. fail la.
training after it. but my mood didn't seem good at all, you see, today gave me another reason to hate thursdays. lol. and coach came late, but she left after passing clarice a paper. how responsible. ^^ according to her she wasn't feeling well so, ~~~ lol. usual warm ups, straight shuttle, square. was supposed to do some sprinting things but clarice took that away for us. :P haha. so we went straight to court work, if thats even counted? then game! not even 1 proper quarter for us, yes thats screwed. and training without rochelle and bird is still... different. ): ah wells. went to keep balls after training cos our juniors' maths fail, don't know how to count balls properly lol. chat with vanessa, and i realised how lag she is. -_- LOL. went home with lydia, cherie and yp like usual. hmmmm. the bus ride with dia was totally fucked up. some stranger was super guailan. he can't bloody move in when there's so much space. idiot.
dinner was okay~ but coke was good. haha. okay i shall go off, needa bathe and do chinese. i shall sleep early too! need to wake up at 515 tomorrow morn. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
face it, its so hard to live a day without you.
i know, that we're nothing. nothing at all.
Julia, ):
Labels: netball, school, thoughts
♥ Date: Sunday, August 09, 2009
Happy Birthday Singapore!
hello hello! national day today. haha. which means 10 more days to my sis' birthday. (:
i felt so retarded when i woke up at 4am plus in the night to reply sms-es. LOL. it wasn't intentional, just that my nose was just =.=! lol. woke up v early again today, 8 plus. sian-ed like MAD. hai. watched tv, fa zheng xian feng! :D haha. msn-ed and all the usual things. oh but i helped my mum to prepare food today. MUAHAHA. xP lunch was great cos it was the double fish fillet. LOLOL. (ya whatever bryan, fat luh fat luh) watched Dreams again. KIMBUM! :DDD damnnnnnn cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee. lol. played facebook, then did some of english argumentative. (I WILL FINISH IT BY TODAY OKAY) was practically sian for the whole day but i was happy! so bryan called cos he was bored, chatted till i went off for my dinner. haha. I TELL YOU, DINNER WAS AWESOME. (: steamboat and shabu shabu cum bbq = total spam of meat. ahhhhhh. shiok. :D but it made the whole kitchen oily. HAHA. then my bro was being totally retarded which made me laugh like mad. lol. so, dinner was awesome not only cos of food, but it just felt so... together. :]
matters of heart, i don't know what to say. it alr happened, now what do YOU want us to do? is sensitivity the issue? i don't know i don't know i don't know.
if you want to talk about hinting, mine wouldn't be hinting alr. it would be STATING. but okay, people are different. thats all i need to know, right?
i don't know what to say alr. as i said, if you think that this is worth forgetting the friendship and all, then okay, fine, whatever your way. cos anyway from the start it was our fault?
screw it. do i need to remind you that i have a heart? that i have feelings too?
i hate all these crap. i don't think its worth letting go, which is why I CARE.
whatever it is, sorry.
if you could make me happy again,
Julia, :/
♥ Date: Saturday, August 01, 2009
i feel like i'm stranded...
ello! (:
wait, i need to recall yesterday....
okayokay, i know thursdays and fridays sucks. D: but i don't remember yesterday being that bad... hmmm. english was pure crap, so i talked to yy and sam the whole lesson. maths was zomg, i was practically dying. i don't know why i had sudden tiredness. so i just slept whenever i could. -_- then we had ACC. HAHAHA. the best lesson ever i tell you! this lesson was...erm, carving. haha. its damn fun. while carving, that stupid wq got his revenge. RAWRRRRRRRRR. so we started sand war. LOL. SUPER RETARDED. we ended up dirtying each other's table all the way till geog. and mdm sim. ._. please la, don't think too much! lol. lit felt like a waste of time cos ms nisrin was busy calling some people's parents. super jian kay. next time whatever homework uh, i will do lit and nothing else. =.=! science was fun playing truth or dare, now i'm lucky. think cos all my suay-ness were used up yesterday. hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
went to cherie's house after school with dia and ping! hahaha. WII! super funny, esp lydia playing tennis and her inability to find the cursor. HAHAHAHAHA. :P stayed till 4 plus and went homeeeee. then dia and i were hungry so she got bread and i got macs. omg fat :X msn-ed when i reached home, ah ya. no life. ~.~
i did something stupid again at night! slept with the comp on. wthell. LOL. x.x
today's a saturday, rawr. saturdays are never good. and apparently this weekend is boring. no work, no anything. i should be happy, but i'm not. i think tomorrow would be better since i need to do elit? bahhhhhhh.
i'll still count each day that passes...
i don't know what else to say, but you know, its a game. i did my dare, which probably caused things to be more awkward. yet, you insist that yours is damn ridiculous. hai. what nonsense is this. stupid childish acts...
bird sprained her ankle, PLEASE TAKE CARE DEAR! <3>!
you know i miss you.
Julia, :]
Labels: random, school, thoughts
♥ Date: Sunday, July 26, 2009
If only I could learn to be perpetually happy
yes, these days have been really rough. i think i forgot what happiness is. no laughter or smile ever felt real these days. laughter - it used to be so easy, for me. i feel so much more at ease in school, cos there's always people to make me laugh. call it crap or whatsoever, it still works. i think even sleeping fails now, it no longer takes away my unhappiness.
i may sound stupid, but i really don't know what is making me so unhappy. accumulation, since when?
expectations, plus everything that comes with it. disappointment included, sadly. talking to ys made me feel much better, yet it's not enough...........................................
i wasted a day again.
i didn't get work done.
how stupid of me.
i'm not emo-ing or whatever you call it. but just,
2009 聖公會軆育表演會（英式女篮）[c=#1188FF]Julia; ♡[/c] says:
bear, i think i've taken in more than how much my heart can contain
yes, this feeling.
whatever fuck, i don't want to continue cos my brothers pissed me off.
Julia, D:
Labels: thoughts
♥ Date: Thursday, July 23, 2009
are you even a person?
you don't live a life which we live do you?
so you don't feel the way we feel do you?
just go on, nothing's wrong with it.
as long as you think its right,
what can people do to you?
since you think you have all the rights in this whole fucking world,
so be it.
i can't even be where i want to be.
i can't even say what i want to.
stupid, maybe.
serve me right, maybe.
i just don't like things to get any worse.
i should probably thank my ability to laugh so easily,
which probably saves me from being sad/angry for long.
yet i realised,
i was only deceiving myself that i forgot about it alr.
ahh. too much to take in.
Julia, ):
Labels: thoughts
♥ Date: Wednesday, July 15, 2009
so sick of love songs
I LIKE SCHOOL TODAY! HAHAHA. mrs neo was being nice during english, maths was boring yet it passed damn fast. ^^ HEE. then we had PE! suppose to test for sit ups and inclined. but it was raining, so, SITUPS! haha. i did 48! don't know if i improved from last year, highly doubt so though. all my stupid fats. D: mehhhh. i tried to practice for sit and reach. 44! WTHELLLLL. D: I LOST MY FREAKING FLEXIBILITY. noooooooo....shall stretch more at home. ): recess, chinese, DNT. haha. this week's lesson is soooooo much better than last week's. and chinese! bloody hell. I WANT TO GET BACK THE TEST LUHHHHH. why that WCK don't want give!!! D: haiii. but yeah, FTI was fun. HAHAHA. stayed back after school with sam to do DNT cos i still had 2 ideas undone. -_- grace came along when we met her at concourse. finished DNT and went to TM for grace to get her studs. HAHA. SCARY LUHHHH. stop playing with it! ~.~
TOMORROW! boring lessons, but nvm, (: GONNA RUN WITH BIRD AFTER SCHOOL! ^^ BURN FATSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. (FINALLY!)
ITS MUM'S BIRTHDAY TOO. oh man. i need to go and shop for a present, i need to get qiqi's 1 too, plus sof's plus joey's. hurrrrrr. money fly away alr! D: maybe i won't get all first... hmmm.
its also the first national match for the cboys and girls. yet, its a closed 1. z. HOW STUPID.
i don't feel like i belong in your life anymore. there seems to be a line between us, yet, i don't know where the line is. you used to be in my everyday. and now, you're just some passerby, hi-bye. is it you? or is it just me? i hope things go back to normal SOON. ]:
youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! please stop itttttttttttttt. D:
Julia, (: