i figured i can't study with a mind wandering somewhere else. i guess i shall just rant it all out and go back to study. since my studies are more important than you. 

you don't know how much i don't wish to hear your name. and you don't know how much i want you to just, disappear. oh yes, that would be great. then no one could affect me as how much you do. because no one else does the things you do. i hate myself for not being able to stay angry at you. but yet, deep down, you don't know how much i want to tell you that i, dislike, you. its been long since i felt so &*%%@$#*(@%$. you may think that small things don't hurt, but still, a wound, is still a wound. you don't cause a blow, but you seem to be stacking up blocks of anger inside me. you won't stop, because this change has became you. i guess you totally lost yourself, don't bother finding it back because no one would care, no one would feel a difference. still, you KNOW the difference. fuck. 

okay i don't feel better. but at least i've let it out. now, i can study. 

you won't feel the hate anyway. 

i swear, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR NAME. ugh. 

Julia, _|_