life is being such a bitch. i'm living life in an alternate manner, 1 day's good, the next day has to be bad. hai. what a joke. 

class was was per normal. lalala~

maths remedial was RETARDED. lol. 

training was just a lesson of demoralization.

this is what i learnt today:

-i suck too much thats why i wasn't asked to play WA

-i had to play C, against rochelle.

-i suck too much that why i can't even play my main position

-i learnt that jocelyn is better than me at WA

-i learnt that i'm not important to the team at all

-i learnt that i'm only a substitute 

-lastly, I LEARNT THAT YOU ARE JUST SOME BIASED BITCH. 

i was so badly hurt after the game. you being the coach, only cared about the OTHER team, the OTHER team and the OTHER team. apparently i wasn't FIT enough to be in the OTHER team. but you know, i realised that which team doesn't matter. it only mattered to me because all you care about is the OTHER team. they get to re-take their center pass, they get all the advice from you. and what do we get? get thrashed in the face? getting so demoralized? fuck. 

so what are you trying to say now? this is your main 7? so all you care about is them? what fucking nonsense is this. its only JULY. it hurts even more knowing that a shooter had to play WA. so i'm of so little importance? 

tears of anger, if it is even worth it. but still, i won't give up. i just probably need time to gain back my confidence. ugh. 

i'm sorry for being a mood spoiler to you.... ): 

oh guess what? all these are not even enough to ruin my day. there's still DNT. 

ha. awesome not? 

okay, i shall go off, to HEAVEN. haaaaaaaaaa. i wish. 

Julia, _|_